I roll with the punches, I keep people guessing, and I continue on my merry way. Why? No one else is going to do it for me.
I have this strong desire to leave this place, and have had it for a long, long time. I never realized it before, until I remembered what I always wanted [to be] when I grew up.
I never thought of a career as my goal, and never answered those annoying questions with "A doctor! A business lady!" What did I want to be when I grew up, at age 8? "Alone, secure, and far away from here." That was all I hoped for. I was content in working in a bookstore stocking shelves, or in a restaurant bussing tables, as long as I was away from Mama, Detroit, Michigan, and anyone who knew me.
What do I want now? To be away, able to pay my bills, but mainly just away from Michigan. Far, too.
Does that mean I want a new life? Does that mean I hate what I have?
Am I terrible for wanting something that isn't a moment away from the family and friends that I have so closeby, now?
I wonder about this most days.
I have this strong desire to leave this place, and have had it for a long, long time. I never realized it before, until I remembered what I always wanted [to be] when I grew up.
I never thought of a career as my goal, and never answered those annoying questions with "A doctor! A business lady!" What did I want to be when I grew up, at age 8? "Alone, secure, and far away from here." That was all I hoped for. I was content in working in a bookstore stocking shelves, or in a restaurant bussing tables, as long as I was away from Mama, Detroit, Michigan, and anyone who knew me.
What do I want now? To be away, able to pay my bills, but mainly just away from Michigan. Far, too.
Does that mean I want a new life? Does that mean I hate what I have?
Am I terrible for wanting something that isn't a moment away from the family and friends that I have so closeby, now?
I wonder about this most days.
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